This is the first album I recorded. The story behind it is this. In 1980 I went to see my spiritual teacher in India. I was travelling with Kumudinii from Canada and Nitish. It was my first time in India and on my way I bought 10 cassettes. I planned to record for my guru the songs that I had written for Him over the previous five years and to give to Him. But as I began recording, each time I completed a cassette to give to Him, someone would ask me for the recording so I would give it to them. On the last day, I was waiting on the corner where his car would turn before taking him out for His field walk. I stood there alone and just as He drove out of his house, I waited with so much love and apprehension for Him. His car stopped as it was turning and the window was open.
I saw His face, His smile and I melted inside and said to Him. “this is for You Baba”, as I offered the cassette of songs. He reached out and opened His hands and said “Why do you want to give me this?”. I said “Because I love you Baba”. At that point He closed His hands around my cassette of songs and held it inside. He reached up and gave me namaskar with a loving smile on His face.
I then went back to England and the previous recordings I had made of these songs had all been erased (by mistake) so I rerecorded this album in three days thanks to Vimal at RAWA studios in Liverpool.
This cassette is reproduced here exactly as it was when I gave it to Him and before launching any of my other albums I imagine placing them into His hands once again for He is the Love of life, Life of my own, song of my song. Namaskar. Jyoshna
Recorded 1980 in England, Liverpool
1.Weak for the want of You
2.Your way of the heart
3.Cant keep Silent
4.You are new to me
6.Child of Humanity
10.Innocent and raped
11.Body of Gold
12. kirtan song